A new year, a new beginning.
Time to start living, loving and laughing again.
After being absent from blogging here for some time, I am trying to start swimming in the mainstream again. It is now four months after my husband passed away suddenly and time for me to resume a semblance of normality.
The past four months have been a roller coaster of emotional and physical changes. Our family home of thirteen years has been sold. A lifetime of memories had to be sorted through, some was discarded, some donated, some sold and others were kept.
I bought and moved into a new smaller home where I have to rebuild new memories, new dreams and a new normal.
I have to come to terms with the fact that I am not one of a unit bound by marriage anymore. Having to face life on my own scares me terribly!
However I know I have to find new dreams and goals for the future. New relationships must be formed and old ones strengthened and cherished.
When my daughter gave me the wall hanging with the words “live love laugh” on it I knew I will make this my goal for the new year; to live love and laugh every day as much as possible within the circumstances. I know I will still miss my husband every day and will mourn him for many years to come.
In the meantime, time waits for no man and I have to use the time left for me to the best of my ability.
So I will try to swim in the mainstream of life again. Some days I might feel like drowning and on others hopefully I will feel as if swimming is a pleasure again and in the process I hope to become a stronger, more compassionate and wise person.
I invite you to join me on this journey as I write about life.